In primary school, I used to get in trouble a fair bit. Often, it stemmed from lack of interest and boredom… and just being a ratbag kid. This was particularly a problem in Music class. It was about year 7 or 8, and my knowledge was well beyond those of my counterparts. I’d already learnt how to analyse pieces of music in musicianship, the pieces we performed for concerts were of a level I had mastered years before, and as a result I rebelled, out of boredom. I needed a challenge.
Now, I’m finding myself sick of the same routine, day in, day out. In my career, I am at the level of a baby in diapers – there is so much I have not seen and do not know. So much. Plus, I work in an career that is dynamic, ever-changing and new research is constantly evolving the way we do things. But as a 22 year old kid with ADHD, I’m sick of the routine. I love to be busy, and I love to be challenged. I have early identified the area of work that I like and it is unpredictable and no two days are similar.
I feel frustrated though. I have so much to learn, and so much that I can apply myself to, but I am constantly pre-occupied with the same, monotonous routine. I didn’t say it wasn’t time consuming… Sure, there are some days that are different; some days that are stressful, but the principle is the same.
I’m in a rut. Maybe it’s because I’m getting closer to the end of this work stint, before I move into my dream area where routine isn’t applicable per se. And who knows, maybe I’ll look back on the hectic days and wish for the routine.
But not right now.